work is a drag

we have this demo for a "public safety authority" that is scheduled for mid june. i am supposed to get this RADIUS extension called EAP to get working with our VPN solution. ever since i joined this company i have been involved with way too much coding. this is not good since there are severe limitations with me when it comes to programming and i have no formal education in programming as such. i can do C very very well and that is where my software knowledge stops. there is absolutely nothing wrong with my logic. i am a researcher by education and i would be best placed working on specifications and design - may be even minimal implementation.

ever heard of a monkey coder ? no ? well, come to my company and you will find one. i do a lot of coding and i indeed look like a monkey, a black one at that ! when i was at nokia i was involved with so much research work i would look forward to waking up every morning so that i can do some more work. sounds geeky, but i am no geek. i would work every day until the security guards kicked me out as it was time to close. that changed when i joined this company. these days, after 2 alarms and half an hour of self imposed extra sleep i still do not feel like waking up. i dread work. to be fair, the work is not boring. i am sure it is somebody else's cup of tea.